Friday 1 May 2015

Day 85

Today I feel like I'm being pushed out of clininc but kept behind and they only want me to stay....I am oh so tired.....and only want to sleep today!  We are still making plans to leave and hoping for early next week departure.

I'm so done with this place and only want to leave but am so so scared at the same time.  Gah, what a mix of emotions.  Today is definitly not a positive day so hoping tomorrow it turns around and I can be happy.  I guess we're all entitled to those days right.

My bloods are still giving me some grief so if I could have some happy blood thoughts that would be great!!!

FUCK CANCER!

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXCPIRATION DATE MAKRED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!

HANTS COUNTY STRONG!

Much Love
xoxo

Wednesday 29 April 2015

Day 83 Me Thinks (getting out of dodge)

So back at the clininc admitted for the night (maybe more)  my vision went all wonkly again so here I am.  Hoping an increase in steriods will help solve the problem.

Best part of this blog is that I am ready to come home, we are done with cancer treatments and will be booking flight home as soon as I am stable enough to travel.  Hoping sooner rather then later.  We've been followed by gut instinct thus far so let's hope we're on the right road again.

FUCK CANCER!!!

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!!!

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love
xoxo

Sunday 26 April 2015

Sunday,.....day...something

Best day I've had in a week.  Feeling much more like myself and my vision was much better today!!!

Hoping with each day I'll see improvements there and be back as good as new :)

Going to keep on keeping on like always!!  Thanks to everyone for doing what you're doing and keeping up doing what you're doing :)

As always!!

FUCK CANCER!

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON TE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love
XOXO

Saturday 25 April 2015

Catch up Day

Sorry for not writing the last few days . Still recovering from surgery and trying to get my bearings. Things have been up and down and all around fucking crazy. Starting to feel a lot better today. Promise to try and stay in touch but for now please have patience while I deal with shitty vision and that makes it hard to write.
Love you all. Thank You for all the well wishes lovins and prayers.

FUCK CANCER!

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON TE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love X0X0

Monday 20 April 2015

Day 74.5

Well well well, quite a couple days ya'll

Here I sit getting pumped full of the p's in preparation for surgery.  Taking it easy and being the good doobie that I am (right Kyle and Mom)

What's actually happening in my head is a different story: See my delightufly wonderful DrD (If you read this and want me to remove your name let me know and I will xo)  told me to take it easy....easy...what??? Okay, no problem.  I made a 3 day deal with them all.  I'll listen and take it easy. So I'm sitting on the side of my bed complaining about wanting to get out and about and of course Kyle and Deb are like "blah blah blah, you can't, blah blah blah" In my mind the next 5 mins plays out like this......

I snapped, I jumped up and squished their heads together all the while tangling their arms in a knot so they couldn't give chase.....I'm so lightening fast that I bolt out of the room.....I have a momentarily lapse in memory and forget about the two separate poles on either side of my bed holding all my different meds...I power through the door with both poles dangling complete with meds falling behind me.  As I round the corner to make my escape I see the night Dr and Nurse R.......I fake left, fake right and just scoot by.....they give chase and grab the tail end of a pole as I'm making my way through the doors.  Lucky for me they grabbed a bag of meds that easily rips off and I have my breakaway moment down the stairs and out the door, freedom, sweet freedom....haha

............or I just sat on the side of my bed and play out little fairy tales in my head :)  After such a serious couple days I think a little ha ha was in order for tonight and this little side story did it for me :)


Anywho,

You have all came out in droves to support us yet again.  Thank you so much, we very much appreciate the thoughts and prayers.

I will be signing off early tonight and will update when possible tomorrow.

FUCK CANCER

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love
xoxo














Day 73 rolling in to Day 74 SURGERY UPDATE

Good Day All

I know I missed a day but unfortunately yesterday couldn't be helped.  My headache came back with avengence in the in wees hours Saturday.  I had to go to clininc anyway Sunday morning so the nurses had a look and tried to help,  and when the pain didn't improve over morning the doc was called in.  After being looked over and sent for scans it was found that I have a brain bleed and that surgery will be necessary today.

The pain was gotten under control last evening around 9ish and was able to eat and open my eyes.  It was a terribly scary day but thankfully Kyle and Mom were here by my side (literally, didn't leave a 10foot radius)  plus the docs and nurses at the clininc were here all night long.  We will keep you all updated throughout the day as things progress.

FUCK CANCER!

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT!

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love
xoxo

SURGERY UPDATE:
Hi All
Surgery will happen tomorrow at 11am my time.  Today is surgery prep getting some plasma and platlettes in to me.  Thank you for all the kind thoughts and prayers, you are all here in spirit and we CAN feel it. xoxo
Update when have more info.

Saturday 18 April 2015

Day 72 of Star log (hahaha)

Well my mom is here!!!!!!  Unfortunately for her I was wide awake and hungry at 6am and she just happened to be in that area sleeping, and just so happened to be woken up by noise in the kitchen  hummm  :)

So mom and I had some brekky together to start the day.  It was nice to just sit and enjoy mom and maybe, just maybe, talk her ear off.  We were able to partake in another special moment this morning.  Congrats E on the big D!!

Off to clinic for mom and I.  Me for reg treatment day and mom started a 5 day cleanse, nice for her to be able to spend the time in treatment with me and see the ins and out of how it really works every day.  It was a pretty easy day for me, being done the earliest I've been done in weeks but then having to wait for her was pretty funny.

We then headed to the hotel for the afternoon/evening of hanging out.  Not much to report today dear folks.

It is Dr/Nurse/Caregiver of any kind prop time though.  My goodness you people work hard.  I know I know not all do but the majority of all I 've ever seen and witness DO and they DO NOT friggin STOP!!!! I was literally exhausted watching my nurses today.  I've been pretty blessed over this whole journey with amazing caregivers who have gone out of their way to be of help (Starting at home right up to now) so just wanted to say a big Thank you to you all tonight!!  You do not go unrecognized in my families world!!!

Going to sign off, hang out in the comfy bed and relax for the rest of the evening.

FUCK CANCER

I DO NOT HAVE A FUCKING EXPIRATION DATE MARKED ON THE BOTTOM OF MY FOOT

HANTS COUNTY STRONG

Much Love
xoxo